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Nausea

2011-05-21T21:43:00.004+08:00

Thursday night was horrible. Halfway through archery training, I started feeling dizzy. It got worse as time went along and the shaking of the MRT caused me to be on the verge of vomitting on my way home. When I laid on the bed, it felt as though the whole world was spinning around me. Luckily my stomach was empty at that time so I didn't vomit. The whole feeling was totally awful. It was just for that night but I wonder why.

The Cabinet and The Lions: Parallels and the Importance of Self-Renewal

2011-05-19T00:35:00.000+08:00

PM Lee announced the Cabinet today. It reminds me uncannily of the decision to disband the national football team earlier this year. Of course, the circumstances in this case are much more jovial, as contrasted to the unceremonious nature of the overhaul of the football team.

The parallels are there, however. The review of the national team came on the back of a disastrous outing in the AFF Championship, whereas the Cabinet reshuffle was after the elections which saw a major drop in vote share and the largest number of opposition MPs in Parliament ever. A strong mandate still in the context of a democratic political system, but a major setback nonetheless given the dominance of the PAP in the post-independence years.

The outcome of the elections further emphasised the need to bring in a new style of governance. Besides that, the grooming of the 4G leadership had also emerged as a pressing issue even before the elections. Same with the football situation. In the aftermath of the AFF Championship disaster, the general sentiment was that, with all due credit to the great work that Avramovic has done, it was time for a breath of fresh air. Avramovic has stayed on, and only time will tell if that was the right decision.

Of course, no transition can be considered smooth if changes are overly radical. Old hands have to be available as guiding lights, and newcomers to be eased into their jobs as much as possible. In the new Cabinet, the overwhelming trend is that many current ministers have swapped portfolios. Such a move is brilliant in marrying a new perspective to a particular portfolio, with considerable experience in governance. At the same time, first-time MPs have been duely appointed to gain experience quickly. Likewise, 14 players from the old guard are expected to be recalled to the national squad in preparation for the 2014 World Cup qualifiers, with the remaining 16 slots given to new faces, in what is a good "young-old mix".

It has to be noted that it will be a "baptism of fire" for the new MPs who have been appointed as full Ministers. There has not been such a move for 27 years and PM himself acknowledged before the elections that these potential office-holders will not have the luxury of time that he once enjoyed. Same goes for the young players to be called up to the national squad. They will be thrown into the deep end very soon, in possibly a derby clash with Malaysia, with a very crucial spot in the Third Round up for grabs. It is a progression that the Lions have to secure, though in this particular respect, national governance is starkingly dissimilar in the level of importance. After all, politics is not "masak-masak".

久别重逢

2011-05-18T14:02:00.004+08:00

好久没打华文字了，感觉超怪的。因为想在未来的学期修读翻译课程，所以不得不把华文搞好，而想使中文进步，多写是重要的环节，博客也因此成为了有力的器具。

昨天是繁忙的一天。早上和朋友踢球，重拾守门员所应有的自信，着实感到开心。自从受伤了后，我发现了体育活动在我日常生活中是如此的重要。即使无法为国家队或职业球会踢球，但既然已经踏上了守门员的旅途，就应持之以恒，努力把自己的潜力发挥出来。毕竟，这是我的座右铭之一。

回家休息了一会儿，傍晚又回到学校进行射箭训练。训练前，我把一年级的数学课本转卖给了人。买者竟然是一位SM2的学生。这让我感触良多。试想，若这位同学是海外学生的写照，那也难怪他们的学业成绩普遍上都比本地学生优异。虽然我常听说他们的学术程度本来就比咱们的高，起跑点根本就不同，但我始终相信勤能补拙，若本地学生也能拿出如此的拼劲，成绩一定也不会逊色多少。

当然，学习生涯不只啃书那么死板，虽然假期时阅读一下课本有益无害，但我觉得假期是充实生活其它方面的绝佳机会，学术方面的探索就留给开课后才来努力吧。

回到射箭训练，队长忽略了今天是公定假日，因此除非另有安排，不然体育设施的聚光灯都不会打开。训练时间因此被迫缩短。队长向我们道歉，我想，大家都是从错误中学习，我自己又何尝不是如此呢？

Of Revisiting Blogging and EPL Clubs

2011-05-18T12:10:00.003+08:00

I have decided to revisit blogging again. Reason being, I feel that languages are an important life tool and to improve your command of languages, writing plays an important role.

It's the holidays now so I have a lot of free time. On Monday, I spent the morning watching highlights of all Premier League matches. West Ham just got relegated so I have to pick another team to support in EPL. Not that I won't be supporting West Ham and Leeds anymore; I will still be keeping close tabs on them. I shall base my selection on three criteria: pedigree (so that I don't have to go through this every five years), playing style (watching football is all about enjoyment - you have to identify with a particular style before you can enjoy it!) and transfer developments (my friend suggested this). I will make a preliminary decision at the end of this season, then observe the transfer market and decide finally after I observe the shortlisted teams at the start of next season. I know I sound laughingly serious, but as Bill Shankly once said ""Some people think football is a matter of life and death. I assure you, it's much more serious than that." Enough said.

With A Bike Once Again

2008-07-19T19:30:00.002+08:00

I am with a bike again! Actually I wanted to repair my brother's old LeMond Tourmalet road bike, but I guess due to the amount of mileage it has clocked, there are too many faulty parts. I went to the bike shop and asked for the repair costs and it amounted to about $300! My goodness!

As such, I decided to repair the mountain bike that we bought back in 2000. Amazingly, it was still in a pretty good condition. Just a few repairs were needed. So I changed the below items:

2 tyres - 2 X 12 = $24
1 tube - $6
1 chain - $28 (Old chain was super rusty)
Truing - 2 X 5 = $10 (I tried but I just didn't know how to true wheels! Have to figure this out man.)

Total: $68. Bargained a bit and got $58. Maybe it was because I bought the bike from that shop 8 years back.

Am wondering when I will bear to spend and have the money to buy a good bike of my own. I mean those that are really good.

But the main thing is that I have a bike to ride once again! Time to do some crazy stuff!

Kate Voegele!

2008-07-15T21:06:00.004+08:00

Just now in the evening, I went to do my intervals. Felt a little lethargic. Over-training? Perhaps. Shall see how as to how my running schedule will pan out over the next couple of days. Anyway, the point is that I didn't meet my targetted times. But I still remain confident.

I listened to Kate Voegele again! Ok, I first heard this singer when I went to Music Junction @ TM to walk about. It was playing and I asked the shop assistant about it. It sounded so appealing! And it was a first listen for me. I thought it was Shakira. Haha.

I came back home and found out that this singer's surname is pronounced "Vogull". And I discovered another great song of her called "Only Fooling Myself". (The song I heard in the CD store was " I Won't Disagree".) The latter sounds very soulful, and the former, more catchy, more radio friendly.

Below are the lyrics for "I Won't Disagree", my preferred song of the two!

Ignorance is bliss

You'd always hear me say

But at times you can't deny

Those eyes lookin' your way

Let me begin by saying what I mean

It's a crime against the heart you know

To be somewhere in between

Well don't be shy I've got an open heart and hand

And I just might have to confess just where I stand

'Cause lately you make me weaker in the knees

And race through my veins baby every time you're close to me

Take me away to places I ain't seen

They say you've got a hold on me

'And I Won't Disagree

Rock a bye my baby

Don't be blue tonight

Oh I'm on my way

And I'm gonna make it right

'Cause I've got the feeling

You'll be needing love

And of all the lonely hearts

You're the one I'm thinkin' of

I've been told it's gonna take an iron hand

To break the mold and stand above all of the rest

I'll be thinking of that evening

When there's nothing for me to do

And I'll be wondering if by some slim chance

You're wondering too

Sometimes I feel just like what this song desribes! Haha! Hyperlink for the song on Youtube is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83LkgFYA_2Y. Picture above is that of her (courtesy of www.katevoegele.com)!

Citius, Altius, Fortius!

2008-07-10T22:09:00.005+08:00

My IPPT is on July 31, Thursday. I am working very very hard, both mentally and physically, and there's only one IPPT badge that I wish to place on the left sleeve of my uniform on August 4: the one with the star. There's only 1 colour that I want, and that is the colour of the medal above. I was never born with a good level of fitness but I have always believed that any able-bodied fella would be able to achieve Gold if he put his heart and soul into training for it.

Citius, Altius, Fortius! (Swifter, Higher, Stronger - The Olympic Motto)

(Above photo is courtesy of the official website of the Beijing Games.)

Hello

2008-04-13T17:41:00.003+08:00

Hello there, I am back posting again! This after more than one year. Many things have changed, but this blog's still here. Haha. Anyway, I just came in to pen some of my thoughts. You see, I have been looking at courses and such to enrich myself. (Ok I just went back to use proper punctuation for my sentences instead of my traditional "dots". Haha.)

Let's continue with a new paragraph. I have been looking at courses and stuff since don't know when, and I just reached a conclusion this afternoon. Upon this conclusion, I looked back at this embarassingly long period of time that I took, and I learnt 2 points from it.

One, I have to stop procrastinating. Upon having an idea of something, I tend to drag before doing it. Even when a deadline approaches, even when push comes to shove, I will still drag. Call it laziness or what, I don't know. It's one of my weak points and although I do not wish to heap too much stress on myself to change it, it is definitely a bad habit that has to go.

Second, I have to stop considering too much before making decisions. It's always good to consider a wide range of factors before making a call on something. But as with everything in this world, too much is never good. It's a delicate balance.

As I said, I don't wish to stress myself too much over the kicking of these 2 bad habits. But they have to go; I just have to be cool about it.

2007-01-31T17:07:00.000+08:00

Been long since I blogged…now my first job has ended and I am starting on my second job…both jobs were gotten thanks to friends…a big thank you to both of you!!!...you know who you are…haha…

during my first job …I had one really bad day…not as in scolded by superiors or what…its because I knocked my head hard during work…real hard…I was checking a printer under a cabinet…then when I finished checking I simply slammed my head against the cabinet…it was so loud that people looked in to see what happened…I didn’t know what happened myself until the pain came in…then the whole day I felt dizzy…so that’s a huge bit of intelligence gone with that bang…

Then during the same day I had gone to buy tix for the asean football championship…I called in advance to ask if the officials will be going for lunch or anything…the person who received the phone said…we will always be selling the tix…no break in between or what…so I happily went…upon reaching…they were all out for lunch…I really had nothing to say…I had to go back another day to buy the tix…but anyway till now here are the results for Singapore… 0-0 with VIE…11-0 win against LAO…2-2 draw with IDN…1-1 with MAS (first leg semis)…1-1 draw again with MAS (2nd leg)…then proceeded to win on penalties 5-4…noh alam shah is our top scorer currently with 9 goals…final is against Thailand…I have never seen Thailand play but I have always known they are a very strong team…so…just as two years ago…we are once again the underdogs…but let us all hope that lightning strikes twice!

Recently I realised the importance of maintaining relationships with your best friends and family, and not to take them for granted…I believe effort is needed to keep a good relationship going…and you definitely need to put in the effort with respect to the people closest to you…I had this thought suddenly because recently my best friend went to ns…and my brother is also serving…and I miss them a lot…and that was when I realised why i should not take relationships for granted…

Lastly, when I went to buy the tix for singapore’s clash with Malaysia…I got interviewed by cna!!!...i don’t know why but I became very nervous when in front of the camera…at first I was quite excited about this and told people about it…then later on when the news showed the footage and people started either smsing or online messaging me saying they saw me on tv…I became a bit embarrassed…nevertheless I am grateful for this valuable airtime that was given to me…and I am also thankful to the friend who recorded the footage for me!!...thank you so much!!! (maybe I will post it here if I don’t find it embarrassing anymore…haha)

To round off this entry I am going to type a list of things I am never ever going to do:
1. I am never going to smoke. I know I have said I wanted to try it before…but nowadays I am getting so frustrated with 2nd hand smoke that I have nothing to say about smoking…
2. I am not going to gamble
3. I am not going to scold vulgarities…I know I have said this before and it turned out to be an empty promise but this time round the promise is going to be kept alright!...its just that recently somebody around me kept scolding vulgarities and I found out that it actually sounded so unpleasant to the ear…I am REALLY SORRY to those with have been offended by me under these circumstances alright!...sorry sorry!!!

above is one of my favourite photos of this time’s asean football campaign…showing alam shah executing a sepak takraw kick in the match against laos…

2007-01-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

I should say I sent away 2006 with a heavy heart…mainly because of the a levels I guess…I did work very hard…I did fight very hard…but but…the problem is…I started too late…ok ok…I am 0% confident of getting into university…but well…theres still some time before the release of the results…so its waiting time for now…

Its now the new year of 2007…actually…at the end of every year…I always have a heavy heart…everything just feels very odd…as in…I just feel…the coming of a brand new year signifies the going by of another year…that alone makes me feel very heavy in a sense…in my opinion…the end of every year is a time for comtemplation…with all due respect to every other person who spend their new years eve partying away and happily counting down…I still find those practices very odd…personally I don’t see anything happy about the coming of a new year…that just is a very heavy moment for me…

Currently working now…oh yes…I finished my kite runner about a week ago…currently I am reading tangerine by colin cheong and the curious incident of the dog in the night-time by mark haddon…both are books recommended in the read! Singapore 2005 campaign…above is a picture for kite runner...personally...i think its one of the greatest novels i have read in a long time...i should just say its very thought provoking...

2006-12-27T13:50:00.000+08:00

Came back early last Monday morning from eastern china trip, which was super cold but super fun…that very evening I went to secondary 4 class gathering…which was fun…great to see all of them again…

Then last Wednesday went to watch happy feet…which is quite funny…or are animated films all so funny?...yesterday went to watch curse of the golden flower…watching quite a lot of films these days I think…haha…which means expenditure is going up!...watched 3 films since end of As…plus 3 games of bowling…and outside meals are all so expensive…now I am even using adult ez-link card…makes things worse…adult fares are really horribly high…or is it that we are too used to paying student fares…tsk tsk…anyway looks like I have to curb my spending soon…hehe

Other than these…usually I have been reading books at home…I have finished kite runner!...its really a very nice book…no wonder it was a recommended book under the read! Singapore campaign this year…I recommend this book to all readers…hehe…other than reading books and newspapers I am simply just surfing the internet and practising my guzheng…haven’t spent much effort yet on searching for courses to take up or find job opportunities…guess I am still resting and having a break (also fell sick from the trip…too cold?)…personally I feel this will be the last chance for me to really really have a break…or is it? Hmm…

Sometimes only when returning from overseas do you realise how much you love your country…true, it’s not a perfect nation (in actual fact, there is no perfect nation in this world) but nevertheless its still our home, a country which we are familiar with, a country in which we grew up in…

Beginning to wonder why my friendster account has so little testimonials…its not something important…but…just wondering…the account seems dead…hehehe

2006-12-05T10:19:00.000+08:00

Heres a recap of what I have done over the past week…I forgot what I did last Monday…hehe…on Tuesday we were supposed to go back to college to collect our leaving certificates and verify our testimonial write-ups…after that I went out with my class guys…first we accompanied my friend to the airport for his interview…finding the destination of the interview was hard enough…we went through corridors and many doors before we found our destination…it looked like a particular scene in the matrix reloaded when seraph led neo to see the oracle…the corridors that we walked in kind of resembled that…

After my friend’s interview we went to the airport workers canteen to eat…haven’t gone there since when I was still very young…then we went to safra tampines to play bowling…we played 2 games…I got 131 pinfalls for my first game!...happy happy…but kind of lousy for second game…but my technique is definitely wrong because the ball always falls onto the ground with a super loud thump…but who cares…I am happy enough if score exceeds 100…hehe…

After that we went to tm…went to play the xbox 360 that a shop placed on display for people to try out…it was a driving game that was based on how many cars you managed to send crashing…in my opinion it’s a fun mode of car gaming because my steering has always sucked…hehe…after that we went to watch casino royale at gv tm…I think I will try not to go to gv again…because the seats are super cramped…and I don’t really get the movie…particularly the gambling parts because I don’t understand the rules of poker…(anyway I have read up the plot on wikipedia and now I understand it better)

Wednesday was tpjc prom…I didn’t go…yes I could afford the 80 bucks for the tix…but I simply found it nonsensical to play 80 bucks for a meal and…perhaps some ambience?!...its absolutely atrocious…I didn’t want to part with 80 dollars to say…have a lesson in etiquette?!...i find no sense in it…that’s why I hated prom and didn’t go…BUT BUT…majority of my friends went…I guess its just a case of different-people-have-different-views kind of thing…so I respect their decisions nonetheless…and hope all of them especially my classmates enjoyed themselves…which I am pretty sure they did…

Thursday I went down to bras basah complex to buy my guzheng strings because I snapped one of them during practice…I bought extra just in case…and they cost in total 30+ dollars!?...just a few strands of metal wrapped in nylon…I guess I bought a tad too many extra…that’s why it SEEMS expensive…hehe…

Friday I went to the sports museum (at national stadium) tour with jy and jj…seriously sports MUSEUM…the exhibits are real old…and we saw people like joscelin yeo in their younger days…we also went round the national stadium and I can only describe it as RUN-DOWN…nothing else to say…

Friday also heralded the start of the 15th asian games doha 2006…till now team Singapore has won 2 silvers and 2 bronzes…the shock was that remy ong finished 37th in the singles…I guess its seriously too much stress…carrying the hopes of the nation, the tag of defending asiad champion…and reigning world champion…add to that the responsibility of team captain…I guess its just too much…what matters most at the end though is that he tried his best in both his preparations and his competition..and that he has learnt experiences from the tournament itself…

Yesterday I went out and ate lunch at 4.30! I was starting to have gastric pain already…and I ate fast food!... if I lived in the us and I read fast food nation…probably I will abstain from fast food altogether…but the key is that we are in Singapore and whatever unhygienic stuff the author described was using usa as a case study…so I guess the impacts not so great on me…nevertheless I think I will try to avoid fast food as much as I can…

on my way home I went to the library and borrowed The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini…it’s a book recommended in the Read! Singapore campaign this year…guess its going to be nice…since it was also a nyt bestseller…I guess I love reading…because I was simply ecstatic when I got my hands on that book…currently I am about 10 pages away from finishing my fast food nation…and I am also reading wei4 si1 li3…in my opinion…reading is something so valuable, its imperative that one makes it an integral part to his or her life…

2006-11-22T18:26:00.000+08:00

It just dawned upon me that I had better blog now since I at least have some time…anyway As were over last Friday…think of it when the exams were just over…it felt real odd because I had to switch back to my so called normal life as compared to the previous life of constant studying…lets think…what have I done since Friday?...oh yes I am practicing my abacus…hahaha…it really needs a lot of concentration because once you are off-focus for even a little bit, you will almost surely make a mistake in your calculations…

Monday went to extend my passport at ica together with jun yao…going to china…soon…and we had a joke about rice there…hahaha…

Tuesday went to my mom’s friend’s house at bishan to have my hair cut…it was so bloody long that it was getting unbearable...then on the way back something nonsensical happened…me and my mom both dozed off on the bus…when we reached the stop where we are supposed to switch buses…I was wide awake already though…however I was not very familiar with the route so I asked my mom whether that was the stop to alight…so she waked up sheepishly and said no…then the bus drove on…and went onto…the expressway…haha…then I woke my mom up because obviously we have overshot by a fair bit…then she realized it…haha…so we went on and on…and happened to reach our family clinic…so my idea was to go down and have our flu vaccinations since we were travelling to china…and so it was done…by accident we actually got more things done than we wanted…haha

When I got back I started searching for a song…I only remember the tune and the last part pf the lyrics which says “that’s the way it is”…it’s not a new song...but I remembered that it was real nice…all along I thought it was by leann rimes…but I kept using that to search and couldn’t find anything tangible…then I suddenly just typed “that’s the way it is” and found that the song was actually by celine dion…dots dots dots…I listened to it…and no mistake…it is really a good song…and the song title is “That’s The Way It Is” itself…I feel that it has an upbeat feeling to it…makes a person feel good after listening…

In the evening I went to practise my guzheng…it really sounds great…and I was amazed myself by the fact that I could still remember some of the scores…haha

Anyway Singapore is currently not doing well at all in the asian games football tournament qualifying round…they drew with Syria 0-0…it was a good result but considering the number of chances they had, they should have won…then last night they lost 2-0 to Iraq…so our hopes of qualifying for the proper tournament are all but gone…

Currently reading: Fast Food Nation by Eric Schlosser…tons of insights into the fast food industry…it also includes some of the dark facts that are not really known to people…awesome book…

also I am looking at a rowing course…still considering whether I should take it up…yes or no? haha

2006-11-01T23:11:00.000+08:00

Monday was the gp mock test…the comprehension passages were about drugs in sport...suddenly I got a bit too excited because it was the first time that a gp test of any sort was of a topic that I was at least more fluent in…that’s not to say I am very knowledgeable at it though…anyway…the first passage was against the use of drugs…and the second was…for the use of drugs?!...very absurd right…

Actually his main line of argument was that since the use of performance enhancing drugs is so hard to stop now…why not legalise the use of it altogether?...after all…”if we cant beat them, join them” right?...however personally I can never accept that point…and the more I read the passage the more angry I got…its nothing to get angry over actually…but guess I was just letting emotions get the better of me…and I think getting emotional is a big no-no in gp…because you have always got to stay objective and argue coherently…

Anyway…firstly this author said that certain chemicals are difficult to distinguish as to whether they were ingested deliberately, a by-product of the body’s operation, or just taken in accidentally through other drugs…he cited nandrolone as an example that can be taken accidentally or produced under stress by the body…now I am afraid this is taking a very narrow view of the topic…firstly…modern tests are now able to detect whether this particular chemical is artificial or now…for example…the doping case shrouding Floyd landis, the (supposed) maillot jaune winner of this years tour de france…his testosterone count was abnormally high…and the test was immediately able to state that it was due to synthetic and not natural-occurring testosterone…this shows that tests now have advanced to a stage that can distinguish between the two…as such the author’s viewpoint that artificial and natural-occurring chemicals detected in the body can be possibly mixed up cant stand at all…

And even if new chemicals are able to elude this artificial-natural distinguishing of the tests…any abnormally high counts of a chemical in the body should be able to indicate that performance enhancing drugs had been taken…for example if the athlete takes the red blood cell-boosting hormone EPO or Erythropoietin…tests will detect a red blood cell density that is way too high…it is only absurd to suggest that this was due to metabolic reactions or accidental ingestion…there is obviously a benchmark or a certain minimum count above which can prove the using of banned substances…

Even if athletes have really taken drugs with no intention of cheating…they only have themselves to blame…in todays sporting arena where doping carries such high stakes…its part and parcel of the athletes life to be particularly careful to what he eats…especially in the aspect of medicines and drugs…personally I feel it’s a burden that comes along with the job…after all, every job in this world carries with it one or more difficulty right?

He also argued that some winners of grammys, Oscars or even Pulitzer prizes have expressed that drugs helped them in their creativity... as such drugs should be allowed in sport as it is allowed in other areas of competition…however this argument has a loophole in that…in sport…any use of drugs has a direct impact on your performance such as increased stamina or higher level of reaction…in other areas such as the arts and such…drugs only have an indirect effect on the thoughts of the users…it may only be sheer luck that their award-winning ideas come during the time which they were taking drugs…

The author also lamented that drugs will always be a step ahead of the tests available to test them…however the point is that…who has more resources?...obviously it has got to be the enforcement agencies which have more backing right? It is therefore reasonable to say that we will be the ones who are a step ahead if we are organized in our efforts…

He also commented that certain athletes have athletic genes in them and some even live in higher altitudes which result in their higher levels of stamina…it is true that this is unfair…however things such as genetic heritage are not within our control…whereas things such as drugs are actions that we can choose to carry out or not…moreover there have been athletes who subject themselves to altitude training…wont that be evening out the advantage of others?...

Sport is primarily a competition of physical strength and tactical astuteness…if drugs come into the picture it will indeed be a blasphemy of the basic values of sport…and which will topple the true meaning of competition itself…

2006-10-29T19:49:00.000+08:00

Last night…I had a funny dream…I dreamt of computer agents…yes those you see in the matrix films…I was fighting with one with them with my souvenir baton from the year 1 trackers when I woke up…that’s what dreams are like…super crappy…anyway...later tonight west ham will be playing Blackburn...if they lose…I think pardew will be gone…actually its kind of likely that west ham will be relegated this season…why do the clubs I support always get relegated?...used to be leeds..then now west ham...am i a jinx?...wahahaha...if the hammers really get relegated…maybe I will support…Liverpool?...hehe…tomorrow there is gp mock test…we will be taking the entire paper…then the tutors will be going through the brief essay outlines and the comprehension answers…I estimated these will end like…4.00 pm?! Goodness…hehe…maybe I calculated wrongly…

2006-09-09T14:06:00.000+08:00

read this on today newspaper on thursday september 7...i think its a daily column (not sure) named focus on the family...by dr james dobson...seriously it never fails to be meaningful and enlightening...although some of the things may not apply to me now...but it may be useful in the future...this one is relevant though

Comparing Yourself With Others

Someone once said," Comparison is the root of all inferiority". How true that is. When you look at another person's strengths and compare them to your own weaknesses, there is just no possibility of feeling good about yourself. Young people are especially vulnerable to making comparisons.

Once, I was speaking to a group of teenagers at a conference, and I'll never forget the question posed by one young man. He said," It seems that everyone has more to offer than I do. I envy the guys who are better looking than I am, more athletic or smarter. I just don't measure up. How can I deal with my own insecurities?" The problem is was describing is common among young men and women. Even at a young age, our self-image is shaped by how we stack up against our peers. It's not how tall we are that matters - it's who is the tallest. It's not how fast we run - it's who runs fastest. It's not how smart we are - it's who is the smartest. This, a pattern of self-doubt that often becomes all-consuming when adolescence begins. The answer I gave that young man is one that many teenagers need to hear;" When you pit yourself against the best and brightest, you are merely setting yourself up for failure."

Mental health begins with an acceptance of life as it is and a willingness to make the most of the unique strengths and talents you've been given. When that is achieved, comparison with others is no longer a relevant issue.

2006-08-12T14:02:00.001+08:00

Alright finally I get the chance to blog…what happened yesterday?...yesterday I went to college with my dyed hair…I have looked at it left and right and I thought it wasn’t obvious…but the first thing everybody said when they saw me was…what did you do to your hair?...and ms wong told me to get it back to black over this weekend…haha…

Today during spe we continued our badminton module…I think mr. Chew is quite a good badminton teacher…he never fails to make us laugh…and I think he knows well what hes teaching…today we played sets using the proper point system…and I think its really troublesome…the doubles players have to change sides when we win a point…then the player on the left side is supposed to serve when his teams points is an odd number..or is it? I am confused myself…and there is this thing for the old 15-point system that has the first server second server…well I guess with an umpire solely in charge of these rules it makes the things much less confusing

after college ended I went to do my zhou1 ji4 because it had to be submitted before the day ended…after I finished it I went on to do other work…and started dozing off…haha…I went to sleep at 10 last night and slept for almost 12 hours…goodness seriously cant continue like that…before sleeping I was listening to this radio youth forum on 938 live…they were at temasek junior college…and the temasek students spoke good English haha…upon hearing them I remembered the governments ongoing speak good English movement and thought that perhaps it aint that difficult to speak correct English…one just has to put in a slight effort…however singlish is part of our unique culture, and we must not lose it…we just have to know what is the appropriate language to speak at whatever occasion…but to be able to do that firstly we have got to have a good command of our English and mother tongues so that we can switch them with our singlish with ease…or else the situation will be that we cant switch as and when we like because we aren’t eloquent enough…and end up speaking singlish even we are discussing business with overseas corporations…that will be disaster…

ok heres another 2 quotes from one of my favourite books:
…the idea being that if I rehearsed the pain, punished my body enough and did enough work, maybe it wouldn’t hurt so bad during the Tour itself.

To my way of thinking, the Tour wasn’t won in July, it was won by riding when other people weren’t willing to.
---Every Second Counts by Lance Armstrong and Sally Jenkins

2006-07-15T14:52:00.000+08:00

This morning mom didn’t go to the meet the parents session…yesterday she told me she had a lot of stuff to do…no time to go…if she went it will have been a mad rush for her…it has always been interesting hearing what the teachers say about me to her…well this year I wont get the chance to hear that…hahahahaha

Was listening to carrie underwood’s album in the morning…her voice is just so crystal clear, just so penetrative, just so full of power…I simply cant find any songs that aren’t nice in her album…if Kelly Clarkson is my idol…she will be second…why do my favourite singers all have American idol background?...hahaha

2006-07-15T10:41:00.001+08:00

When I blog…its because…one…I have something significant to blog about or I wish to let off some steam…second…its because I have more free time to afford to spend on ensuring my blog doesn’t go idle…this time…it’s the latter reason…

Yesterday morning…I avoided late-coming to college by just a whisker...its funny sometimes I am doing the wrong thing but I don’t do anything to rectify it…well well starting from next Monday I just cannot be late for college any more…who gives a shit about the past times when I have been late…what matters is now…punctuality sounds like a small thing really…but punctuality just makes me feel good…haha

Before I came to college…I looked into the mirror…I almost got a shock of my life…there…I saw…were three very visible “rivers” on my forehead…I thought it was because I was grimacing or what-not...so I relaxed and observed again…they were still there!!!...i was like…goodness gracious…have I really been thinking too much over all the years?....something really needs to be done about those wrinkles…its not about the appearance actually…its that…I just turned 18…how is it possible that the wrinkles be so visible?

Something I read last night…
Pavel was one of the quieter riders, who just did his job and rarely spoke up. We almost never heard from him on the team radio, until finally one day as we were riding, he asked for a mechanic because something was wrong with his bike. Johan dispatched a staffer to fix the problem, and then we heard Johan say,” Okay, Pavel, is it better now?”

“Less or more,” Pavel said.

We all cracked up. I tried to explain it to him. “It’s ‘more or less,’ “I said.” The term is ‘more or less’ “

“Well, it’s the same thing.”

“No. No it’s not.”

“How can it be different?” he said. “Less or more, more or less? What is that?”

He argued with me for the longest time.
---Every Second Counts, by Lance Armstrong with Sally Jenkins

2006-06-03T19:59:00.000+08:00

will blog now when i have time...well what happened today?......i slept ten hours...its about time i had sufficient sleep so as to allow my muscles to recover...ate dumpling for breakfast...after breakfast tidied my room...its super untidy...goodness as I am typing i find that this entry sounds so weird...during lunch i read the entries at youth.sg...about time that i start contributing already...during evening went to buy shoes together with jun yao…when he arrived…I thought that I didn’t bring the big walk-reebok voucher…so he called yun yi to see whether she can bring it over and at the same time see what reebok stuff she wants to buy…few minutes after ending that phone call…my mom called jun yao…telling me to check my back pocket…and…magic…the voucher was there!…guess I have to be alert and not be so blur…how can i possibly forget that i actually brought something?...I finally bought a new pair of shoes…any more delay and I am going to get injured very soon…its reebok this time round…well…my dream mizuno shoes will have to wait a little while more…

2006-05-06T20:54:00.000+08:00

Well…revamped blog…but super untidy…and funny symbols seem to appear…although changing the browser encoding to Unicode will solve the problem…and quite a big thing happened during this revamp…right? Right? Haha…seeing my previous entries…found that I wrote that I wanted to write about my Taiwan trip…but until now…haven’t written!…but then think about it…use computer too much not good…so how? Hahaha!…And I remember somebody came to my blog and typed some advertisement about pornography using the comments link?!…these people really have something wrong with them…anyway Quite some time ago…I was writing a diary entry…and I discovered that I had so many things to write that I took so long to write!!!…somehow if the same amount of things are typed with the computer…the time is shorter…I guess typing is really faster…so I have decided that the blog shall become the main place for my entries from now on…and any particularly significant entries…I will copy them into my diary…cant bear to leave it idling!!!

And yes…I dont support arsenal anymore…I have finally found an English club that really plays the way I like..and that is…drum rolls…west ham united!!! And very coincidentally they will be the deciding factor as to whether arsenal can finish 4th and achieve qualification for the champions league…because west ham will be meeting tottenham…the current 4th place team today…if they manage to make tottenham drop points and arsenal wins wigan…arsenal will finish 4th…

the last thing is I have to learn that before doing something important…must think very carefully and not let emotions get the better of myself…its something that I really have to learn…

aim and shoot properly, guys...

2006-04-20T20:54:00.000+08:00

COME TO OUR TPJC CARNIVAL!!! it is named Fun blast @ tpjc...it will be held at tampines junior college this saturday from 9 am onwards!!!...please give it a visit...because it will be a guaranteed fun-packed day!!! admission is free and all games are free too!!! whats more, if you win, you can get prizes!!! most importantly, it will be you, the visitors,who will have a chance to decide which is the best booth of the college!!! so, do come down!!! by the way, "aim and shoot properly, guys" is the theme of my booth,which is near the rock wall...come on down and visit me...and my other classmates who will be having a 2nd booth at the top floor physics lab!!! ps those who see this message please spread the word around if possible!!! haha!!!

RADDY...NATIONAL SOCCER COACH!!!

2006-03-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

RADDY...NATIONAL SOCCER COACH!!!...his full name is Mr. Radojko Avramovic...this is so cool!!!from left: jing jing, mr. avramovic, me and jun yao...this photo is not exactly brilliant...but considering the tightness of time we had then...its excellent already!!!

23rd SEA Games Manila 2005

2006-01-01T20:42:00.000+08:00

ok the SEA games have been over for quite a period of time, and only till now do i have the time to pen down some of my thoughts about it all...anyway here are the 5 things that caught my eyes the most

1. Tao Li of swimming. in case you start wondering why her name is so short, she comes from china. well this girl is muscular...is this a trait of all butterfly swimmers? And you can roughly guess her age by what she does: she will make faces at the camera...haha...what really caught my eye about her was that she has that confident aura about her...a bit like lance armstrong...and thats what athletes need...a sort of arrogance in the correct way...and her results does prove her confidence...3 individual gold medals…2 in backstroke and 1 in butterfly...the backstroke times broke the sea games records...how about that for a 14 year old?

2. Tay Xi Hui Nicole of gymnastics. my goodness this is really touching. fell down from the balance beam three times! for 2 of the falls, i think her hip hit the beam...it was solid wood against bone...real painful...after the 3rd fall, you can see her clenching her little fists...and the tears were about to burst out of her eyes...and she still went on to complete her routine...thats really the perfect example of mental strength and 100% concentration on a specific task...she could have just walked out but she still hung on! And heres the most amazing thing! Not long after her falls, she picked herself up from the physical and mental pain to complete the floor exercise with a gold medal performance! That’s exceptional mental strength for a 12 year old *as a member of sports ccas, i start to wonder whether i can do the same...hmm only when a similar situation befalls me will I know, I guess...touch wood actually…however, in sport, failure is a way of life*

3. Yeo Wei Ling Joscelin of swimming. once you see the name, theres not much i need to say right? once you see the name on the start list for individual events, you are almost 50% sure that she will clinch the gold medal...as for relays, these are team efforts so there is no guarantee winning even though shes in the team...and guess what? all her individual victories are quite straightforward...it wont be a thriller finish or what...what impressed me about her at this games…there was the 4X100 m medley relay and joscelin was in charge of the third leg which was the butterfly…from almost no lead, she opened up singapore’s lead to about 3 body lengths, leaving the last swimmer with a pretty simple task…she is just so powerful…

4. Young Lions of…obviously…soccer…these are the statisitics...no medal of any colour since 1995...no gold medal ever since singapore ever started taking part in sea games...out at the group stage for 3 consecutive times...in short ever since sea games became an u-23 tournament we have never got past the group stages...actually the young lions didn’t really catch my eye at this games…its just that for every sea games, the sport that I will be the most concerned about will be soccer…anyway, the teams preparation was ok…but then come the tournament, they just couldn’t score!…especially the Indonesia match…so many gilt-edged chances…it was the same thing at the 2003 sea games…guess we have to work on shooting…and also one factor for the failure was the under-performance of some players…no choice I guess…maybe raddy should have used the other players instead of keeping faith with the more experienced but under-performing for the tournament…

5. Live Our Dreams by Kit Chan (the theme song for this SEA Games)…hehe…the song itself is so touching…and everytime they like to fit in the videos of our athletes together with the song…makes it even more touching…everytime I see the video I will feel like crying…maybe its because I am involved in sports in some way myself…that’s why the song is more close to my heart

alright…that’s all for the sea games!

Saturday, December 31, 2005

2006-01-01T15:40:00.000+08:00

only about half a day gone now…so I shall not write about today but rather write about yesterday, the last day of 2005…oh yes…heres wishing a happy new 2006 to all…hope everybody in this world can stay happy always…

So, what happened yesterday? Let me think…not much actually…spent most of the day doing homework…just like most people of my age…and yes…my muscles ached yesterday…Friday had track training…we did drills, then striding, followed by an all-out 800 m run…then after that we did 10 sets of heeling (is that what mr .yazid called it?)…essentially we just sprinted up a slope 10 times at intervals…for those at tpjc…it’s the slope that we see when we get in through the main gate…yes…after that we still went to gym…so all these kind of explains why my muscles ached…at first I was afraid of overworking already…but I kind of decided that will be the last time that I shall take the risk of overworking…I need to read up on what exactly is overworking…have to do this fast…

Wow I cant imagine how much I have digressed already…blogging today about yesterday, and then went on to talk about Friday? My goodness…

Oh yes…and yesterday afternoon I typed 2 e-mails, one to my aunt living in Virginia, Maryland of usa and another one to my kor…the one to my aunt was super long…and I kind of decided that I will start to e-mail her regularly…the e-mail that I just sent was actually a very late reply…so actually I felt quite bad about it

As for the one to my kor…hmm he is currently touring in peru…and by the way he just called home about an hour ago…for some reason he said he can only talk for one minute…and he did talk for only 1 minute or even shorter…he just finished his trekking at inca trail…and according to him, he was unscathed…anyway, I looked for pictures about that place…and my goodness that place looks awesome…it looks like new Zealand…and the first thought I had of it was that it looked like a scene taken out of lord of the rings…haha…just cant help feeling a bit worried about him touring in peru…but well…hmm…on the other hand we cant possibly stop him from seeing more things right?

After sending the e-mails, did some more homework before having a nap…it may sound a bit funny…but I like to sleep on my house’s ceramic floor…it’s a tad hard but its really cold to lie on! Haha!

After nap was dinner…then a bit more homework before my weekly dosage of she4 diao1 ying1 xiong2 zhuan4…every Saturday 9 pm on channel u…I sound like I am advertising…but anyway…next week is the last episode already…hehehe

After the show ended…did some more homework…for some reason this word keeps on appearing…haha no choice…have to finish up as many holiday assignments as possible right?…after homework was fruits…then bathe…then homework again…and guess what…only when I looked up did I discover that I did my homework through to the new year…I didn’t even notice that the clock had hit 12…haha

After that, more homework and then I slept at about 2…upon waking up, it was the first day of a new year of 2006! which is TODAY!

oh yes the picture above is that of inca trail...pretty isnt it?

Some Interesting Stuff

2005-12-29T20:24:00.000+08:00

read something in sports section of today newspaper today (some awkward repetition of words)...the article was entitled "I wish, I wish" - 24 things we'd like to see in 2006". its on this weekly column named thursday with rohit brijnath (the writers name)...a certain portion of it caught my eye and it reads like this...

A helping hand: Something's wrong when the opening ceremonies of most Games cost more than the entire budget of most competing African nations. Richer nations need to help lesser ones, whether donating money for equipment or sending coaches to help train kids. Only then do we get a somewhat equal global competition.

rather thought-provoking this is...

Food for Thought

2005-12-20T14:33:00.004+08:00

Hello! Here i am again, after (as usual) such a long hiatus...i sort of decided that if i dont blog more frequently during the holidays, wont i have even less time to do so when college reopens?

anyway, those who have read my blog before (not many though, haha) will know that i hate myself being unable to take the scoldings of others...its a trait of me that i dont like and which i am seeking to change...because it makes me such a petty and weak person

and i just realised thats actually not the case! its just that everytime anybody scold me, i can take it but i will just ask myself what was it that i have done wrong?...after which i will KEEP DWELLING ON THE ISSUE...well, this is really what i call thinking too much...thinking too much has landed me in tons of trouble before, and i have to stop doing that before i land myself in trouble again...that said, i have the utmost confidence in overcoming this so called problem :)

World Cup Qualifying

2005-11-17T12:58:00.005+08:00

Ok now all the 32 teams for the 2006 FIFA World Cup in Germany have been decided…check out the official website for the list of teams…top of the news was Australia qualifying after a 32 year hiatus…kudos to the whole team…the third and fifth photos are of them…nice jersey isn’t it…I love the design of the nike total 90 kits…second picture is of the top view of the stadium…spectacular aint it

The fourth picture is obviously that of me…I cant put it into the profile so I placed it here…this picture is very good to use…hehe…and I was very tanned after volunteering for the osim triathlon at east coast…this is on my friendster too…

The first picture is that of what spain wore for their world cup playoffs with slovakia…the most weird thing is the colour scheme…red and yellow top with blue short sand blue socks?they used to have very dark blue shorts and it was very nice…now?…seems weird really…but one unique point is that adidas changed their design…adidas logo in the middle…number on the right and the crest on the left…quite cool…

Anyway most of my jc friends have known that I dyed my hair…I love it…there are people who said its not nice…or who said the dying was rather patchy…either they were more well versed in these stuff or they had a higher degree of taste…as for me…I find most things nice…

That day when watching the premiere of the live your dreams video by kit chan…I almost cried…by the way live your dreams is the theme song for the 23rd sea games in manila…penned specially to spur the athletes on…I have always been touched when I see videos of our national athletes winning medals for Singapore…for example I got touched even when I saw the aussie football team so happy that they qualified and everybody cheering for them… but when watching the video, I don’t know why I am especially touched…the tears were welling up in my eyes…and the only thing that stopped them from flowing down was that my mom was sitting behind me…

Talk about sports…I used to feel that I have wasted 3¾ years during my secondary school life (the other ¼ was for settling into the new school environment)…I was so slack physically…to persuade myself to run will take a very tough mental struggle…but upon thinking again…I realised that perhaps it was a blessing not to have started training so early…because sports in itself requires a lot of hard work…and a lack of maturity can easily cause one to give it up, thinking it is just self-torture…and last time I didn’t realise I had such a fervent love for sport…so if I had pushed myself younger…it may have turned me off…having an interest in something somehow relieves the pain that you experience in the course of it all…and this is exactly the situation now…

Anyway heres a notice…I have removed the tagboard due to the reason of neatness…so if my readers have any comments feel free to write them using the comments link!…it shouldn’t be too inconvenient I guess…

For this time round…this should be all folks!

Learning From My Mistakes

2005-11-11T19:51:00.000+08:00

Seems that if I blog…it will be about soccer training…haha…hmm today had to report to college at 8.15 am…for track training…and also to submit I and r…went to track training first to put my bag…then guess what I saw…I saw people carrying goal posts…

So there was soccer training today…nobody told me haha…then had to explain to mr. Nordin…hopefully he didn’t mind…after explaining I went back to submit I and r…couldn’t find mdm aslindah…just caught her luckily outside the general office…she said she went to the washroom…and so with the submission of that…it brings an end to pw…to have something that you have been working on for so long suddenly gone…I think it feels weird…hehe

Then went back to track training…weison qixiang hairianto and I came…for girls crystal kesther and pratibha came…for guys Andrew and Reagan didn’t come…for girls I don’t know…3 more I guess…is one of them ming fei?…

Proceeded to do stretching…they had actually done 400 m of warm-up…mr. Yazid asked them to show me how to stretch…haha…who doesn’t know how to stretch?…haha…then went for 6 km run…approximate…6 rounds around the school…I thought it was okay…although it will be the farthest that I will have run…I thought it will be okay if I paced myself…but I was wrong…in the end I was panting like don’t know what…I think I ran too fast in the first 2 rounds…

After running we still had to do 20 sit-ups and push-ups each…after track training finished I went to soccer…without any gear…mr. Nordin told me to take a break as I didn’t have boots and he was worried that I will slip on the wet ground…but I said I will stay behind to look on…I had to cool down anyway…

In the end he told me to play in the training match…one goalkeeper each side…eugene the other side…I just wonder why after so long already I will still feel nervous…and to think its during training only…what if its during match…can anybody teach me how to cope with that…maybe I will just try to treat it as a fun game always…maybe that will help…

Anyway conceded three goals…eugene conceded 2…first goal was from my left byline…I got the angle covered but syed rifled in a shot…and I deflected in with my leg…did I get down too fast…don’t know…was it my mistake?

Second goal…I distributed the ball like some 5 year old kid (my distribution sucked for the whole match) passed the ball to an opponent…he sent in a long shot when I was still tracking back…and I fluffed my save…mr. Nordin said it was a routine catch…yes I should always try to catch the ball then if cannot, parry…I tried to parry when it was a ball that I can catch

Last goal also my blunder…once again I fluffed an attempt to catch a low shot to my right…dropped the ball…syed came in to fire in the rebound

With every goal conceded my team had to do physical punishment…20 of sit-ups and stuff like that…I feel so sorry to them…they can scold me as long as they like it

I think the most important thing is to learn things after every training session…that’s what life is about right…haha

And yes my rushing out still needs improvement…whenever I see the through pass in… I think there is no need to look at my defenders already…just go out straightaway and get the ball!…hehe

just saw an article on soccernet that is very relevant to my blog today!...the link is http://soccernet.espn.go.com/news/story?id=348833&cc=4716
it was an interview with my idol goalkeeper...paul robinson of tottenham and current england no. 1....

some quotes from that article:
...strong enough character not to be affected by any hiccups...
...You just have to try and make sure mistakes don't happen. Nobody means to do it but you expect the criticism that will follow if you make an error and you have got to be a very strong person...
...You have to be your own biggest critic. I take every goal against me very personally even if there is nothing you can do about it. A keeper will always find something he could have done. A good keeper is always his biggest critic...
...But the day you start listening to people, apart from your coaches and managers, is when you have got a problem....
...You also can't go into games thinking you are going to make a mistake or 'what happens if I do this or that?' because you are finished before you are started...
...Every game has got to be positive and I'm confident enough in my own ability and know that I'm good enough to be able to cope with things...
...I have worked very hard to get here with England but it is even more important that I work even harder to stay there. Things can change very quickly in football and no-one knows that more than me. I'm going to work very hard to keep hold of what I've worked a long time for, It is up to me to keep the spot. I've worked very hard to get there but nothing is taken for granted. ..

Of Diaries and Blogs

2005-10-11T12:56:00.000+08:00

from now onwards, i have decided to use proper english words for whatever i do...be it sms or chatting on msn or blogging...it was something that jing jing said that caused me to make this decision...whatever

now i am keeping a diary...started it since september 18 of this year...i have actually started writing these kind of things since secondary 3...but it was on and off really...and i tried a varying number of styles...writing in a book (the most traditional way)...writing on postcards...blogging...

at first i thought that blogging was the best way for me...since it is the technological age now and blogging is so "ïn"...but i guess reverting back to the traditional way was much better...and i guess i was also inspired by miss anne frank...she and her famous "the diary of anne frank"...that explains why i have gone back to keeping a diary book...another reason is that writing a private diary allows me to be truthful in my writing..allows me to write out my true thoughts with no reservations...and the last reason being i dont need anybody to pay attention to me...thats not to say that anybody ever wants to pay attention..but perhaps i just want to be more on my own in a sense...

however i have written quite a lot in this blog...and i dont feel like giving it up just like that...so what i have decided i would write entries in my diary primarily...then i will post some entries that i like on this blog...yes

hmm it has been a really long time since my last blog...so many things have happened...i am really glad that i am leading a very enriching life...and i definitely wont mind more life experiences...

and yes i have removed the tag board bacause i want the blog to look more neat, so just leave the comments using the comments link under every entry...and there is no more song already for the same reason of neatness...included a photo here...arsenal fcs squad picture for the season of 05/06...i have decided to follow Kor and support arsenal...2 brothers 1 club...haha...my favourite player is manuel almunia...the one in the grey jersey with the moustache...thats because he is a goalkeeper (although 2nd choice)...and another favourite player is jose antonio reyes...the spanish winger(both flanks)/striker formerly from sevilla fc...he is very nimble in his skills and also runs very fast...my favourite...he is on the left side of the first row...do click on the photo if you wish to see more clearly...

hmm......speech day

2005-07-22T22:13:00.002+08:00

hmm here i am again.....once again things have happened in this time..hmm got interfac soccer....and most significantly TOUR DE FRANCE.....well lance armstrong has proven himself to be the rider to beat....he is right on track to winning his seventh straight crown.....tomorrow will be his last chance to honour the maillot jaune by winning the big 55.5 k time trial at st etienne...but will he want to win it will be a doubt....after he retires well...next years race will be very youthful i guess....basso should lead the title charge with the older ullrich...and you have new riders comin up..people like rasmussen, valverde and all....this years tour has really been a great inspiration to me anw anyway sometimes i wonder whether i should blog daily so as to keep a permanent memory of my life...but i guess its all in my brain mah......i should use most of the time to spend time doin things that are worthy of memories....then the minority of time should den be spent on blogging......now and then blog can liao la hmm...seems like everytime i blog on friday.so more or less its the same lahz...but 2dae pe i clocked 7 minutes 11 seconds for a distance of 1.6 km!!! i am soooo happy.....its really a good time for me.dont know whether it is for others..but well i am proud of myself...its the first time i have run such a distance at such a blistering pace!!! yippee!!! that seems to be the only highlight of college today.......oh yah...infra red connection between phones doesnt seem to work too well....hmm..i tried it with pok yen and ying huis phones but it doesnt seem to work......puzzled.. Well lets get down to the main subject of today…..vs 129th speech day….tomorrow……hmm 2 years never go speech day liao…..the one for the sec 3 academic year I don’t really give a damn la……it was a difficult year anyway…but then for the sec 4 acad year which has its speech day tomorrow…well I must say I am really rather disappointed……ever since the start of this year well I have started to realise how much I have slacked in 2004……as I looked back at the assignments that I didn’t do…….as I looked back on the lack of hard work ……and to think that it was an o level year!!! Seriously its not about the receiving of prizes at speech day……its never about that….i am just very very disappointed that I never put in my best……now I don’t get to spend an afternoon with my very very missed pals tomorrow…….it would have been a happy weekend for me….. I knew I could do it……yes I got into tpjc….it was what I wanted…and yes I got into tpjc and didn’t scrape through it…but well I knew I could have done much better in sec 4!!! Whenever I think about how wei tian and song guan enjoyed their speech day at prss at about march or april……..and how they were so happy spending time with their friends at the usual hangouts…..hmm I would feel a lil lil sad that I wont get to partcipate tomolo I really miss everything about vs…..i am confident I enjoyed my vs life to the fullest during my four years stay there although there were difficult times….and I really miss those days………………

from the bottom of my heart

2005-07-08T21:58:00.001+08:00

hey there once more everyone..i m back..haha..........everybody has been tellin me to update my blog.......but theres simply no time........haha so here i am hmm as usual so long a time obviously a lot of things la......got the china trip which i got to know a lot of frens...and common test.......and volunteering at osim triathlon which was definitely sooo fun and enriching.......anyway here i goin talk bout 2dae.............. today as usual friday so start off with spe lorz........seems like all the s19 guys were all suffering from the after effects of mr nordins unique pe yesterday....but anyway today is still volleyball..still the same stuff of dig, volley and underhand serve.....but then we found out taufiq was a great server!!.......as long as ariff won the right to serve we would thrash the other team with taufiqs serving..haha then maths lor......i dont know why the air in lt3 seemed so refreshing all of a sudden....haha.but it turned out to be too chillin in the end haha hmm lets skip talking about all of the rest of the lessons and go to the soccer trainin...............long time since i trained liao......today was the first after a long break.......so i told myself i am going to have fun playin ball today!!! hmm anyway without the year 2s with us the feeling was really different.......and we have a new teacher in charge of sorts..anyway we proceeded with warn up which was surprisingly very tiring!!!an incentive to further boosting my fitness??? then usual stuff la.....gk drills......the new tchr ic turned out to be some kind of a new gk coach......but then erm....he didnt seem very expert leh...but whatever..........drills still okay la........but handling grounders i have to work on it i guess then to the most xiong1 part.......target practice....wah....got scolded like siao arh.....but then on hindsight i dont think its scold la.......'cause the trainin was going at a frantic pace so naturally everybody was sort of more impatient i guess...i discovered this cuz sometimes i have this feeling too....and mr nordin is definitely telling me off for the benefit of my skills right??? i think my attitude towards being reprimanded has definitely improved by leaps and bounds......more positive i guess....its an experience that i would never have gotten if i had stayed in climbing......and after all football is a sport that i have passion in....so that kinda overwrites all the hardships you get and all the knocks that you sustain on your body........ and after todays session i really understand its actually even better not to get into the first team!!! after all wearing the no. 1 jersey carries a certain high level of stress isnt it?? tommorow beckons...

soccer and all

2005-04-29T22:10:00.001+08:00

hmm long since i typed about what happened for a full day.........well its the weekend again......i started to look forward ever since sec 4...now jc even more so...cause for the week you have been striving hard for studies and cca.....and its really a deserved break...haha..... anyway......today spe we got miss goh for this term......its all the same as the first 3 months.....just that mr nordin became cpe tchr and miss goh spe........just a switching of roles......anyway today we learnt volleyball....its so hard....now i really know..every sport seems easy and fun...but when you get down to it....it becomes so damn difficult.....haha......and it seems that miss goh is not dao1ing me anymore....thats good hahaha then its maths lecture.......aiya the whole trigo dont understand la...like physics...haha.......but then we still give miss wong respect...keep quiet and copy......not like the others lor.....keep talking....miss wong is a good teacher lor......she is so good a ct.....just like mrs lee.....and then she teach maths damn good lorx.......whats bad about her........the students dont understand just go work on it alone....dont come audi and talk..........and whats more sg said that she likes teaching..which i really agree.....so ya lor...sigh then gp lor....nothing much today......dont wish to talk about my gp lessons for now..maybe next time...then gp i got 16/50 for my gp essay..the assessed one..haha physics tutorial also nothing much la......then its lunch....i drank milo for additional energy for later soccer training....ha......its so damn nice lor milo........ after that chinese a lect lor.......as usual i sleeping for the first quarter or so....then a lot of energy liao for the rest of the lesson..haha..i think mr henry low have bad impression of me liao......yesterday tutorial sleep today sleep again.....haix....muz work on it worx wee pin........haha....... anyway after that its not walk home....its rush home....i really regret not bringing my gear to college lor....at least if i bring i can sleep at library before training right........aiya..it was a hell of a rush really....and it was so damn hot......but i like it.....now people must be thinking i am sick.......no la....its just tht so sunny and hot very good for exercising wad....moreover can get tan worx....haha anyway i was a little late......soccer late for training not v bad lahz.....not like climbing must do push up haha...anyway i only late for the warm-up for the intervals......its called intervals because you run 400m rounds at intervals.....that is you get breaks in between lah........anyway i did half the warm up.....nvm lahz 'cause i walk back to college already v warm up liaoz......anyway start the intervals soon then....my first intervals.......mr nordin said gks dont need la....but then i really wanna try....so yah lor....... anyway today we only did half the amount.....normally they have to run 12 times.....today we run 6 times only..aiya dont need to say much la.......damn tough lorz........at first run not much...until later then wanna die liaoz...haha but then anyway i finish liao i felt very satisfied....i felt confident of myself and felt that i was v fit!!!!!! then its start of ballwork lorz....normal drills lor........the field always cause us to be quite itchy......dirty lah i think.........all the spit and sweet drinks and stuff......anyway today got to play match worx........i so nervous lor........haha.....kenny motioned to me to stay cool......was it that obvious??????...haha anyway today got told off by mr nordin today.......during one of the matches......elfi sent in a shot.......elfi is our star striker though i think he a lil injured i suspect...he was open and sent in a low shot to my right........it was not really difficult but i failed to save it.....sigh...........next time this kind must save liaoz..then mr nordin told me off lor......say i dive wrongly as in dive like i was jumping into a swimming pool....should dive sideways..........actually i really know about this point la.....just that i not much time to work on it only....and some more i think i didnt commit that mistake leh......and some more nobody has ever pointed it out to me before....so i m a lil puzzled..... aiyah but then people make mistakes what....i am not perfect...whats important is that i learn from this mistake.....must get rid of my swimming pool dive!!......i still have one more year ahead of me to work on that!!!!!!!!!!!! anyway coach say sunday everybody invited to his home for gathering and to eat or so called have tea...i was really pleasantly surprised.......but then dont know wanna go or not lehz.........'cause that day i planning to buy my soccer gear lehz.....dunno lahz............... this part is add on onez.....just remembered not complete....ya la today training i keep gettin smacked by the ball......aloy did it to me......boon pin did it to me twice and he didnt say sorry.......haha unlucky sia today...i think its becuz i always stand in front of goal and the players were like taking shots during their free time so i kena lorz....... i think i also wanted to add on another thing but then forget liao leh....hahahaha

Press on!!

2005-04-24T11:55:00.001+08:00

Oh I need to let off some steam…or else sort of going to explode liao….aiyah…… Wah lao damn stress lor….tons and tons of work!!!!!….sigh sigh……seems like jc really cannot lag behind for even say 2 weeks…..not like secondary school oredi…..but then, that said, it is just not advised to lag behind…..it is definitely not impossible to get back on track!!! remember adidas' impossible is nothing hahax...…..anyway if you lag its just that you would have to work doubly hard to get back on track…….just some hard moments and everything will be fine I hope…..no its not I hope…its that i believe everything will be fine in no time…..if i work hard..lesson learnt is that next time try not to lag behind……must keep up with the progress….best is to go ahead as far as possible…that will be the best man..last time first three months I did that and it was damn shiok……cant explain that feeling…it just feels great to have done your work (and even in advance sometimes) and you understand everything….. But then actually it wasn’t really within my control to lag behind for the 2 weeks…..i have already tried my best to keep up..but I guess its not to be……..but never mind since for the past week starting Monday I have already stepped up the tempo…so I am sure I will be up to mark again!!! Come on wee pin, push on, you can do it!!! Don’t give up so easily…..

2005-04-16T00:59:00.000+08:00

Thursday I was damn happy lor…….now a bit die down liao…but still v happy……hehe..

Anyway thursday I felt really happy………WOOHOO….i have never felt so so so happy for a long time….past few days din really feel very good mentally…..but I am glad the clouds have cleared…..at least for now…….

Anyway…I guess my love and passion is really in sports…….it really turns me on I should say……a div soccer started on Monday…we thrashed tj 3-0….YAY..boon pin, elfi and aloy scored….then today we met Anderson…..scored two very early goals…..one defensive blunder and one goalkeeping error……song guan was like telling me don’t you ever perform like that gk if you get to be first choice ‘keeper next year…I tried to explain to him….but then I think he only got half of it………its not that easy after all you know mr chua

Then aj scored back 3 goals la……I became so muted….i really hate the feeling when this kind of things happen….obviously tp let their guard down………kumon tp if we are gonna win the a div you guys have to concentrate for all 90 minutes!!

Anyway we came back firing on all cylinders…..to my immense relief……slammed in 3 goals…..then I felt SO GOOD…..yay tp so pro…….oh it was really an exciting match after all……it was like the second best match I had watched in my whole life…..the first obviously is Singapore v Indonesia tiger cup final first leg lah……..”DUH”……

Then actually before that I had known that vs were double champions in x-country!!! SO PRO…VS IS THE BEST…..WOOT…..its so cool you know beating all the other schools in Singapore including sports school…..victorias the best man…I love you always……..

Anyway then after match I go home lyndsey told me that vj thrashed rj 4-0!!! MUAHAHA……raffles lousy….maybe it’s the vs environment that I grew up in…..but then I had never liked anything raffles and hwa chong ever since I was sec 1…..hahaha….anyway it felt great ‘cause victorias mightier than raffles!!!!……I love tp….but then Victoria always has a special place in my heart……yeah….anyway friday I know sa also beat hci……so cool hwa chong lost too….hwa chong lousy….hehe…I neutral towards sa……maybes its because shauns school lah…hes beloved former college…..influenced by him…….

Yeah so I was really happy on thrusday….as I said I have never felt so happy for a very long time…..everything seemed so beautiful……so you see the power of happiness……hahaha….

Anyway…lets come back to Friday……after one nights sleep the enthusiasm like die down liao…but nvm I was still in a good mood anyway……..pe got 4 by 4 relay….i ran….not knowing that my thigh muscles were actually injured…….i thought is my muscles were just tired….after I finish my leg I know I really pull it liao…..quickly led me to imagine about some soccer players with their heavily strapped thighs……hehe…..it turned out to be more serious than I thought…now cannot walk properly……aiya…thank goodness now not much soccer training for the moment….or else how…..

Yeah and after pe miss goh saw me…..teacher ic for rock climbing….tell me off for not going through the proper procedure for changing from rcc to soccer….i could see that she wasn’t very glad……well its my mistake lah….then she also not very happy that I quit rock climbing for soccer lor…..but then why?…..she should be gracious enough mah…..i mean these kind of things happen year in year out….very new meh……its not that I don’t like rock climbing..its just that I like soccer more…..and not much things are going to stand in my way of fulfilling a lifelong dream…….but then how can I explain to her……I already did something wrong in the first place aiyah

I was pretty okay with that…….but then I must say she has dampened my mood a little….my mommy was saying that everybody should scold me more……so that I can be more gracious when people tell me off…….but then mommy I am already trying to change……hehehe….dun need you all to scold me la……..

After school today talk very long to sg at the waffle shop….damn long lor……talk about everything under the sun……really……..

Anyway lets come to my thought of the day….you know sometimes if you sense that some things that you gonna say are going to cause any misunderstanding…..don’t say it!!!!!!!! ‘cause if whoever misunderstands….its always going to get very awkward…..even if you try to explain……..most probably it will end up yue4 miao2 yue4 hei1…..let say even best case the misunderstanding cleared…..the relationship or friendship or whatever will never be the same again!….or am I too sensitive………HAHAHA

So many things have happened since the last blog….always like that……hehe cca choice struggle and stuff….now I am in soccer……..really hope to get into the squad next year…….20 man squad…..dun need to play…..i just get in can already……..even if I don’t get in………ITS OKAY………hehe……like that life then will happy happy mah…….

long awaited?

2005-03-27T15:03:00.000+08:00

well this took so long......haha.....so many things have happened since my last entry......haha actually wanted to update long ago liao......just that everytime switch on com then forget.....then lately a lot of peer pressure..then got a kind reminder from a friend today...so yea...

and yes a lot of things have happened.......SINGAPORE HAS WON THE TIGER CUP........yeah i know its so late...haha....but then i feel so proud of you lions man.......you did us proud.......and it did justice for me standing by you guys for since dont know when.......and to all lions fans who went down to kallang on that final....continue to support the lions....and the s.league......dont be fair weather fans......tho i am very pessimistic about that...singaporeans are just so practical.....

and yes the tsunami incident has died down....tho i think the rebuilding is still going on......prayers for all......i am still feeling very exasperated about this whole disaster....cant seem to find words to describe everything that has happened......

and yea new school (or college for this matter)...tampines junior college or tpjc....i prefer to call it tp.....sounds more hip......tho it stands for temasek poly too.....but nvm i happy can liao......orientation was fun tho i was still coming to terms with the new environment.......then came classes....knew quite some good friends....and to top it all off....the teachers are great man......i love tp.......tho i still miss vs.......shit want to cry liao..........haha..and haha its so near to where i live.....good good......can save bus fares on top of many others.......and also if got anything unhappy can also run back home to allow your heart to cool down.....thats way so cool

wow a lot of things happened sia....cannot write all you know....a bit the tiring..........so i just jump to very recent happenings....today nothing much to write about la......only half a day gone how to write haha...and then yesterday lazy to recall haha....see see everything also lazy....lazy until 3 months never update......lazy until sec school slack so much....aiyah aiyah......

tomorrow soccer trials........my lifelong dream has been to play for a team.....last time actually can one......my skills i think not so bad compared to others (i think)......then everybody grow up then better than me liao....now harder to get in.....see waste so many chances.......

last time also first intake trials kena rejected even without touching a ball.......'cause i didnt have boots..........

this time round got boots liao..and yea thanks linus and joses......for lending me the stuff.....the white boots look great...tomorrow trying for 'keeper.....but then its damn tough lah.....thank goodness i like the feeling of denying others and also i like jumping around like superman......hehe....keeps me in the game this way....and yea i love soccer too....thats another passion that keeps me going on.....

but then once again if cannot get in never mind....small thing only what......hahahaha

Tsunami review

2005-01-01T01:53:00.001+08:00

Just finished reading li seng’s blog….one advice….save all your entries….’cause your blog ROX……I find it very pleasant reading it….a lot of thoughts and reflections along the way…..who knows any famous publisher may just contact you on your tagboard…and BOOM……later on I see "Li Seng’s Life" on the book shelves of Kinokuniya…….haha who knows!!!!!…..li seng jia1 you2 Yes back to what I set out to say…tsunami review…..that day I saw an article on today newspaper…the author had almost the same idea as I had…….seriously sometimes humans are so evil and scheming…..erm wait that’s not the main point…..the main thing is that we are always mistreating earth……over-extract natural resources……pollute here pollute there…….till earth prob decided that well, I have created the wrong species…….so lets take something from them……and they took away the mechanism that allows us to “foresee” any kind of disaster whether natural or man-made (meaning terrorist attack or riots or stuff) Or else why did all the animals escape unscathed????…..HUH?…..obviously they knew it was coming and humans din….so yes….we were all killed…….and yes we should really feel VERY LUCKY that Singapore has escaped relatively unaffected…..my goodness…..like aaron says…..how more can we escape from these disasters??......surely some kind of thing will befall us rite…….touch wood touch wood Yes…erm where was I at?and yes…then man still neva realize their mistake and so earth (or mother nature) retaliated..and this tsunami tragedy is just one example…..who else can have the power to kill so many people at one go……who else but mother nature…..over a hundred thousand and counting…..this is crazy Anyway prayers to those who died…..me and my family going to make donations in money and stuff liao…..hang in there physically and mentally please……really sympathize with those who had their loved ones dead……some had whole families dead………sigh sigh…really EXASPERATED AT THE WHOLE DISASTER….and some more epidemic threat oso…….people in those areas please remember to take proper health precaution like mask hor….how I wish I could help you personally….but I reckon I come back more sad than all the affected people are….and some more school is starting….

what title arh?

2004-12-31T15:17:00.000+08:00

……so yes what did I do today meaning 30 dec…..woke up relatively early…..which is 9 am……haha….then read 水浒传 ……right now talking about 九纹龙史进….and then going into the story of花和尚鲁智深…okay I read to the music of kelly’s breakaway album ……..haha again….dunno listen how many times liao lor….addicted liao lor….

Then after that do what arh…I also dunno…..plan some schedule for exercise everyday..so can have the discipline to exercise…hahax then after that lunch lor….haha……that was how the morning ended…and yes durin lunch use com and finished my unfinished blog entry……which was the previous entry I mean……then after that read some newspapers…hahax

Then as expected…..SLEEP LOR…..haha

Wake up do wad…..read harry potter..haha….seriously I know why everybody over the world is so engrossed in harry potter……..cos seriously it is nice to read……it just keeps you going on……..why I don’t know……maybe it is more simple…..but you cant say that cause I believe the English is still bout sec 1 or 2 standard…..so yah…I am reading harry potter 4…..the goblet of fire….now at the quidditch world cup……hahax….Ireland vs bulgaria……..but I don’t think soccer will have a final line-up like this in some time to come…..Bulgaria is rebuilding…and well Ireland is always not performing tho it has some stars like DAMIEN DUFF….DAMN PRO GUY

Haha then eat dinner…then do what…continue read potter…….okay then watch last episode of pi4 (or bi4???) xue3 jian4….and then do what…….blur liao….hahax…..aniwae……use com at about 11 liddat lor…….actually it is to start typing this entry but end up chatting to a lot of people…..sia larz no discipline siaz……aniwae lor mainly becuz our 4d class had some discussion bout todays countdown thingy…no more oredi because we have to be considerate…..but that is the correct thing to do actually……we should actually call off all new year countdown celebrations….just like Malaysia…just like what nurizam say lor….. “what if one aceh boy glances at the tv and sees us all partying like mad……..what would he think”…….so yes we should cancel everything…..as for soccer match I think once score goal…..whole team should point to the heavens and bow……to show that that goal was for all the people who had died…..dedicated to them…….as for us fans….also cannot cheer too loudly….just clap can liao……yah and should be 2 MINUTES of silence not just one……for more than 100 000 people dead 2 minutes is nothing…..it is just to show our sympathy anyway

and yes prayers to all affected......HOW CAN THIS KIND OF THING HAPPEN?......sigh......sigh...other than sigh nothing to say.....exasperation...is mother nature and mother earth angry.......seems as if we have to take better care of them from now onwards.....cos they are real angry

careful singapore

2004-12-30T01:37:00.000+08:00

okay today must be one of the best days of my hols so far.......why?????......cuz SINGAPORE WON!!!!!!!!! but other than that still very good lah......i just feel great 2dae.....YEAH...how good is that

anyway today started typical......the first thing i knew was that indonesia lost to malaysia 2-1 at home (jakarta i mean)......sia lah......quite a shocker actually.......some more do injustice to the ppl who have died in the disaster.....indonesia died more ppl than malaysia....so malaysia shld have given the match to indonesia........as a kind of way to lift the spirits of indonesians...but aniwae....juz jking lah

aniwae first thing wake up use com.....read EVERY SINGLE THING about singapore soccer......and the peace before the storm....i mean the news bsfore the big match......hahax

then dunno y leh....2dae use com damn long.....i tell me mum i reading stuff.....when actually i was reading ALL SOCCER STUFF.......haha..by the time I finished everything….it was 2 pm liao…….from 10 am to 2 pm…..wow….not bad eh?……..and then my mum say dun wanna cook….so we go out eat……my mum say wanna eat the new mcdonald thingy…..some chicken stuff……then we found out it was priced at 4.45 bucks…..for just a small thing liddat…..what is the world coming to man…..so we went east link mall and eat…..i eat lontong my mum eat mee rebus..and according to her it was the worst that she had ever eaten……finished it anyway……

then I go back Daniel finish sending the comm dinner fotos to me liao…then I see…….mmmm…….not bad…haha….anyway talk about that…since my last blog even go more things happen lor…….got the comm dinner at bao xi and our primary 6.10 class gathering………the class gathering actually juz like any other gathering lah…..its just that I felt they were not so distant after 4 years in different schs…..rather unexpected....we could still communicate very easily…..guys and gals alike……

anyway after I came back for lunch use com again…..this time check mail and stuff…..then after that go sleep for 1 hour…after that read the papers before the MATCH started……I prayed for them 3 times throughout the match…which I always did….always silently telling them to FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT…no matter what it takes…..and damn it they really did!!!!for this match we really did v well…..if we always play liddat everytime at least can get into asian cup lorz……..the start it was a 50-50 match…..we had a few dangerous moments……including a looping header from yan paing but once again one guy saved us…..LIONEL LEWIS…if we are gonna win the cup this guy is really crucial man….he is a damn good gk siaz…..

then as the Chinese saying goes…..if you escape an ordeal, sometime good will befall u soon….and it did….Daniel Bennett with his trademark long shot……he just rammed it in…….then deflect off a defender….1-0 to the lions……the gk was completely fooled……I was shouting myself hoarse in front of the tv……and the whole Singapore contingent was celebrating as if they won the world cup…hahax

but then Myanmar players they are all WARRIORS…they never give up….and back they came…..we could have killed them off after the opening goal….but it was not to be…..then they equalize lor…..defensive lapse as usual….hope spore learns from it….was like the Vietnam goal they conceded….only this time the header was much more easier……open goal leh…captain score one…..Bennett was left trailing in his footsteps….then very surprisingly they took the lead……I was completely MUTED…..wah lao.i think the player is min tun…..he just swerved in a free kick from the left flank…..damn far leh….must be goal of the tournament i think.....but then lewis had a lil’ mistake lah….but no worries he will learn….it may prove to be a blessing even……

at first I thot this is it……spore lose liao…but then i remembered Singapore fought back against Vietnam once and they will do it again….and yes they did it..the Myanmar player fluffed his clearance and it fell to itimi Dickson..that guy had to overcome 3 defenders before crossing in for the UNMARKED agu Casmir…..wah lao….damn easy goal….although maybe I cannot score also…..ez 4 him I mean…then the first half juz end 2-2……

then we came back EXPONENTIALLY STRONGER…wah lao…..my new year wish is for Singapore to always play like this…..like some world class team…..really no kidding….resolute in defence…..swashbuckling in midfield….decisive in attack….what more can you want….then no surprise we took the lead…..agu turned provider…he overcome one or two other players…then square to noh alam shah…that guy juz score…..he was UNMARKED…….AGAIN……I hope their defence dun ever wake up..so we can go final….wah lao then they become rougher and rougher….dunno they play boxing or soccer…..wah lao want to win also cannot liddat tackle rite…..like want to end other ppl career liddat….stamp on alam shah….sweep subramani……F*** them sia……some more no red card sia…..referee kayu….all our papers reporting on him sia….hahax

aniwae after the stamping we got free kick…..sharil ishak take…..low free kick..agu just stand in front block the keeper and whoosh it went in……GOAL!!!!!!….this is what I call retribution..stamp our players some more lah……..

but then remember anything can happen….it was not the end yet….at least not until the referee says so…Myanmar score another goal to make it 4-3….some soft defending by mohd noh rahman (who happened to have just been subbed in…)…..wah lao….they cannot liddat defend one…if liddat we all dun need go final liao….

Talk about that…..dunno whether the last goal was bad or good thing…..the spore bench say they very obviously foul our player b4 scoring the goal tho I din see anything at all….but then at least the goal will make the players more careful in the second leg…cuz now onli got one goal advantage…..but then from two goal lead to one goal very kek sim…….but aniwae yes I din forget the soft defending from noh rahman……

Anyway thank you lions, avramovic and all supporting staff……you made us die-hard fans proud…….as I have always said…..ROAR LIONS ROAR, MAKE US PROUD…...
Here I single out some special ppl I want to thank :-
Lionel lewis: if not for u we would have been out of the cup
Aide iskandar: if not for your leadership and steady defending………
Subramani: your experience and leadership are priceless qualities
Daniel Bennett: born in England but Singaporean at heart….since 8 years old come here live till now….Bennett ole!
Goh tat chuan and hasrin jailani…..Singapore hasn’t seen so hardworking and enterprising midfielders in a long time!!!
Sharil ishak….Singapore needs your vision in playmaking….work hard and you shall be our future star….
Itimi and agu……I din like you a lot at first cuz you were foreign talent….but if you all can give your all for spore then I wish you all the best
Lee bee seng: tis the gk coach….thanx for training out so good gks….i knew you were once a superb keeper too….thanx aplenty for your belief in the lions….but dun be too rash and get sent off again next time hor……
Lastly avramovic…..you are the guy who brought HOPE to us all….RADDY WAN4 SUI4!!!!!!!!

hahax must have discipline

2004-12-24T10:30:00.000+08:00

Okay I decided to write an entry every day….must have discipline …haha……well actually since I started this blog, a lot of things have happened liao…..and if I have written all of them down it would have made the blog a very meaningful one….but as I always say….that was just not to be……mostly bcuz I lazy…..too bad larz…..i tot I said that last time………hahax

Anyway quite some things happened today……..yesterday I finally landed my hands on Kelly clarkson’s breakaway album…….FINALLY……AFTER SUCH A LONG WAIT…….can you believe that…..grrrrrrr….i asked hmv staff on Sunday and they say the suppliers had delayed the release when it shld have been 2 weeks earlier……soso it should have been out either on mon or tue….that means it is still quite new in spore eh?……..hahax…..anyway allow me to do a small review here……well kc’s sophomore effort….erm……one look at the cover and damn she has indeed grown a lot since American idol……now she looks more…….dunno what wrd to use……more like a rock chick?…….anyway the colour schemes and all the photos show the wilder side of her…..unlike the little girl-next-door she used to be…..anyway lets get to her songs…….i still cant memorize the song list……but what I can say is that breakaway is nice……rather soulful……..since u been gone…very rocky tho……very nice too…..u really like to sing along with that…….behind these hazel eyes too……and also because of you…….a very emotional type of anthem that Kelly is most famous for…….anyway the last track beautiful disaster live gives the strongest testament to her powerful vocals…..what more do you want when you have good looks (Kelly has real pretty eyes on top of many others) and such a powerful voice…..i love her always man……my idol always……

Yes and usual in the morning use com for 1 and a half hours again…..haha…….always so exact….actually I know it sounds a lil’ weird but anyway that’s me …….usin the com in the morning when you are supposed to be the freshest…..hahax….and then I tidied my room…….as I tidied up I went through the lyrics together with the songs……well u cant dispute that she is a talented babe man…….can write songs some more………

Anyway later it was lunch……..then I finished up the book Every Second Counts by lance Armstrong…….awesome book…….ppl I all recommend you all to read it and also its not about the bike…….also by Armstrong….sometimes I really wonder why he divorced with his wife……..my mum says it is very tiring to take care of 3 kids alone…….and lance I suppose is too obsessed wit his career….so his wife kristin pissed off and divorce…..things should be this simple aint it

Haha…then I go sleep liao…..as usual……

Wake up liao then start my reading of water margin (or called shui3 hu3 zhuan4) watch the second telecast of the china tv series on every Saturday…..then kena inspired….so might as well go borrow the book to read……damn hard…….no wonder it is one of the four classics of China……but still manageable……will take some time to finish tho…..haha……yes thats all for todae

anyway anyway...ps.......this entry actually written yesterday on dec 23......but cannot finish and then my mummy ask me to go sleep so no choice but to finish it today.....haha

entries about taiwan

2004-12-19T22:36:00.000+08:00

wah lao.............sianz lah.........i got tons of things to write about......but seriously i juz lazy to write......haha anyway can anybody tell me how to make my blog more attractive?..........haha i see daniel's one like v nice............but i dun seem to find a way thru about it........so at this moment i have to try to interest others with my entries............

anyway people i am going to start writing about my trip to taiwan.......look out for that.....i hope it will be interesting........and i also hope it will be done before the tiger cup semis start......cuz by then i would be returning to my so called tiger cup exclusive

2004-12-15T23:09:00.000+08:00

Okay Singapore is through to the semis at the expense of Vietnam……..no surprises considering the current situation……but quite a big shocker considering all the pre-tournament hype about Vietnam and Indonesia making the last four and Singapore finishing third after losing to these two teams……haha what crap……I believed that we would make the semis……..not very firmly tho……haha….they did not spring many surprises………but neither did the lions let us fans down…in the end Vietnam was nothing more than a fluke…….

Remember anything can happen……..that is the slogan for the cup…….and the Singapore lions are living proof of that……

Anyway there is still much room for improvement for Singapore….too tired to say what tho……the same problems always….sigh…….but then really hope they can win the cup……repeat the 1998 feat

Haha anyway all the goals in the 3-0 win over cambodia (which qualified them for last 4) I feel all quite damn lucky…….itimi dickson’s one especially………as nurizam said - some kind of mouth goal……..baihakki had a good header in…..but any good gk would have saved that one…..same goes for khairul amri’s shot in the 2nd half…..same thing…..tho both were results of very slick moves…..haha nurizam begs to differ….he says those two goals were not by luck……his reasoning sounded quite logical actually……haha dunno lah

The good thing after all is that Singapore got through…….only the 2nd time in five editions of the cup…..quite lousy actually..haha…..now they will meet either Myanmar or Thailand or Malaysia…..here is something that I dun understand…..why they keep saying that Thailand kena kick out liaoz……dotz leh…..mathematically they are not out….but theoretically they r out…..haha

I juz hope Singapore dun meet Myanmar…….somehow I juz have a bad omen…..meet Thailand and Malaysia very good……we have some unfinished business with them

Anyone wanna go to the airport tomorrow to look at the lions coming home??????

SIN 1-1 VIE..........bravo singapore

2004-12-08T13:11:00.000+08:00

well another entry gone at the single click of the mouse...too frustrated to say anything more bout that....so this will be my first blog entry since my trip to taiwan.....i think later i need to sit down and note down the places that i have gone to......as some kind of memory...anyway please check out my blog kumon.....put some comments please.....the blog @ oredi on my MSN nick..........i need comments pls..........blogs are 4 ppl to read and put comments........not there for bai3 mei3........ok so give a read okay guys?yeah yesterday i went to hua lien's ocean park........got all those water creatures on display.....like some mini zoo.....and then of course got the roller coaster and stuff............too much stuff 2 elaborate.......will rite more when i get back home.........

and yesterday was the start of the tiger cup, south east asia's premier soccer tournament.........indonesia vs laos kicked off the 2004 edition.........as usual 6-0 to indonesia.........walk in the park 4 them lor.........but then i was pleased to see that all the teams in the cup their standard dun differ v much.....thats good to see........and that also means singapore has some chance.......
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hen obviously half an hour later was the big match btw singapore and vietnam.....the big match which didnt turn out to be........haha bcuz two big teams facing off against one another......thats not to say singapore is a big team.........now become small team liaoz.........aniwae that was the reason for it being termed some kind of big match......
aniwae i was always watchin it wit bated breath.....is that how you term it "bated"?....dunno......hehe......some surprises tho in the lions' line up.......got tat chuan was dropped for hasrin jailani......lionel lewis started instead for hassan sunny.......that one not as surprising tho

first few minutes singapore very jittery........hasrin jailani turned out to be a very bad choice......i thot he would fare better than tc goh but he didnt......sigh...that was actually why singapore was put under immense pressure 4 the first half.....
other than that it was still typical singapore.......long balls which also means a non-existent midfield......they might as well use a 8-0-2 formation.....since the only role of the midfielders were to help out in defence......get the ball and pump it to the forwards......WHY CANT THEY JUST USE SHORT PASSES TO PRISE OPEN THE OPPONENT'S DEFENCE......grrrrrrrrr

thank goodness vietnam was juz as lousy if not a lil' better only.....they almost scored tho......(and singapore mite have been thrashed).......a shot hit the crossbar...gk was completely stranded......heng sia

so 1st half ended 0-0

and second half was much more exciting ........could see rite frm the start...singapore became more attacking........and conceded a goal........aiyoh....

some lousy defending on the flanks lor......allow a cross in....then the guy juz score wit a gliding header.....at the far post.....no chance lewis man.......quite a nice goal actually

only then did singapore wake up.......i juz wonder why they cant play liddat for 90 min of EVERY MATCH.......sometimes good sometimes lousy like shit........really dunno what they doin.....avramovic must be damn frustrated

yah and after the goal conceded we started to string a few attacks together.....effective ones i mean........haha

then we equalized

again indra our saviour.......he go into sports hall of fame liao lor......pls lor........wah lao everytime score at those big match......last time japan this time vietnam......i think he future lions captain....great man he is

yah it was a free kick from sharil ishak on the right flank....some defensive error.......and then boom......indra juz half volley past the viet keeper....the keeper ahould have done better........pls lor i could have saved that shot myself.........haha boasting me..

and correct forgot to tok bout khairul amri....that guy rox man...my fav other than baihakki........he came on for ridhuan mohd.....that ridhuan another one of those surprising misperformers with sharil......anyway it was amri who played a major role in our fightback.....which was made complete by indra's goal

who started the fightback? tc goh. he went up for hasrin jailani straight after the goal.........54th minute sub one i think......he was superb man.........a typical mid.......fight for every ball.......distributed the ball well.......he was the man.......
after we equalize vietnam was no match for us man......we attacked and attacked and attacked.......like some mad dog.......if only we had played liddat since the 1st minute.......and we could have won the match.....

now for indonesia...LIONS FIGHT HARD AND BRING DOWN INDONESIA
anyway some side news here.......daniel bennet's jersey did not have any spore flag on it....i wonder where his flag drop to.......quite malu actually

and seriously agu casmir sux lor......he needs time lah.....but not at the expense of the tiger cup.....i think raddy shld drop him for noh alam shah.....and if ridhuan mohd continues under performing......juz start khairul amri aint it.....raddy heard my suggestions?

this cant do, singapore lions!

2004-12-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

well so shld i write again.......well i think i should.......i must perservere.....correct spelling?......let me tell you what happened yesterday....i haf about finished typin when i highlighted the whole text to cahnge the font and stuff......and den i pressed shift and BOOM.........EVERYTHING WAS GONE......waste my time

aniwae yesterday i went to watch the singapore-hongkong match......part of the tiger international football festival.......as a ball boy...AGAIN.....hehe
well their performance was not really good........esp at this time.....the tiger cup is only about a week away lor...how can this do......attack was non-existent....indra was apparently trying very hard.........but apparently also he is not in real tip-top condition........must be his ankle.....some more......midfield as usual non-existent.....thats a singapore trademark.....i think they should get very young and speedy strikers and then train their long balls to be VERY accurate......use the dirty old tactic......that might be more useful.....hehe.........okok......there was one positive.......the defence........the defensive quartet of aide subramani baihakki and bennett were excellent.......our heroes to be in the tiger cup maybe?we really need them to keep our goal intact so that the strikers can take their time to score............hahaha......eh waitwait.........the goalkeeper was good also......lionel lewis......some more still got hassan sunny on the bench......and sharil jantan.......we have pretty high class gk quality all the way to the third choice.....that shall be more comforting

hey guys wish the lions luck okay.......they need our support to do well ya noe............:)

argh..........my groin

2004-11-30T11:02:00.000+08:00

sux man......my groin is damn pain......now i really have to walk very carefully....or else any little twitch i will feel the pain......THIS SUX BIG TIME!!!!!!!!

well i am writing this entry a day later.......haha........it is actually for the day before.....

as usual lor.......the same things lor.......first use com.......then I listened to Kelly Clarkson's new album "Breakaway" on AOL Music!!!!!!! DAMN IT MAN......that was DAMN SHIOK.......dun worri...its legal.......it is on AOL MUSIC remember.....wow it is amazin man......cuz in singapore i think it is comin later.....in the US it is comin out TODAY!!!!!!!!DAMN IT.......cant wait man.....thank goodness there is this trial listening thingy

then in afternoon.......went to exit permit office in SAFRA Tampines......goin on vacation...hehe...then u noe wad........IT WAS NOT OPEN>>>>>>>HAHAHAHA.......wad a joke!!!!!then haf to go again.......wah lao....stupid sia.......GRRRRRRRRR

then come back watch matrix reloaded......for the THIRD time.....too bad lah.....i am a matrix freak lah.......but i can really say it is the suckiest film of the trilogy lor.....not much substance....all it does is lay the path for a climax in revolutions

haha then after that go work as a ball boy again...this time round it was SAFFC VS Myanmar..........pretty uneventful.....not like few days before.......thats when my groin really hurt.......cuz haf to run around pickin the ball........wah lao agu casmir juz recuperating from groin injury and now i got it......thats not to say i am as skilful as him.......:)

well..........and got some autographs.....from ali imran lomri......former international and SAFFC player....he was v friendly tho..haha...i gave him an air force ntbook to sign.......and he asked me whether i was interested in joining the air force....haha

then i asked DAVID LEE to sign.......WOOHOO....damn it.......he was like damn famous last time lor.....as famous as fandi....not as friendly tho.......his team juz lost 3-1 to myanmar....grumpy face he had.....

then the last autograph i had from ivan kolev the myanmar natl coach.....he was a little puzzled when i approached him.........he cant possibly not understand english rite......it is impossible.....aniwae it was great havin his autograph.....i think he is quite famous in the asian football scene.....and he has moulded myanmar into a force to be reckoned with...look out for them in the tiger cup.......

haha back to my groin......damn pain leh......

juz another day......

2004-11-28T21:59:00.000+08:00

well.......nothing special happened today........unlike the evening before.......i woke up at about 9 in the morning....and i discovered that chelsea thrashed charlton 4-0!!!!!!!!that sux........if chelsea continues liddat and arsenal too......well chelsea will win the title in no time

then read newspapers......then use com.....the usual stuff

my mum was saying that i kept using the computer.........when actually i was using it now and then......i did other stuff.......and went back to the com whenever i needed to check out some stuff.....some kind of misunderstanding.....sighsigh.....

then lunch lor........then watch a show on channel u named mao4 xian3 wang2......quite informative.......talked about nepal. seems as if they are a very religious country.....

haha....then i go sleep....Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz........

woke up 2 hrs later ......eat some stuff.....(greedy me).....and then watch The Mythology of Star Wars......thot it was nice........but it was damn sianz.......george lucas was there talkin away all the time.........

so switch off lor......continue readin the papers...read sth bout breadtalk.........and began wondering about whether breadtalk is dyin off.....i have the feeling that they will not survive for long........unless they reinvent themselves......anybody agree?

then watch star wars VI : return of the jedi.........very old...but very nice as well......i wonder how they made all those effects in the past.......it would have been interesting to noe.....haha i am fast becomin a star wars freak........BUT MATRIX IS STILL THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!! MATRIX ROX!!!!!!!! THE BATTLE SCENES ROCK MAN!!!!!!!!!!

ball boy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-11-27T23:41:00.000+08:00

can u believe it..........i have experience as a ball boy......i still cant believe it man....its crazy!!!!!!i juz asked this FAS official sth....and he asked whether i wanted to be a ball boy!!!!!thank goodness i was wearing shoes tho......cuz my fren jun yao was wearin sandals and the uncle didnt allow......

then.....BOOM!!!!!!!!!i went into the interior of the jalan besar stad and changed into a full adidas kit.......damn man it was in sweden's famous yellow and blue.....how i wish i could keep that......it was super good material also.......climacool i suppose....yeah.....(i went to watch the friendly match btw singapore and myanmar and this chance juz popped up @ me....haha :)

then u noe wad....i even carried the fair play flag out 2gether wit the players.........that was the best of it all....i even got to see all the players damn close up.......all my heroes man......baihakki and all the other lions.........shiok man!!!!!!!!!
den it was back to the job proper..........we grabbed a stool and an adidas roteiro and sat by the bylines......read that again.....it was the ADIDAS ROTEIRO.....and it was the REAL ONE........not the replica.....it was very nice to touch....very nice to kick as well.......no wonder soooooooo EX...........

at first a bit nervous lah....but then it was okay.......simple job actually.....i got to see all the national 'A' players close up.......my fav subramani.......the workhorse itimi dickson.....the list goes onnnnnnnnnnnn

all the job done for 8 bucks of salary....how great is that.....some more got dinner......woohoo!!!!!!!!!!after the match i wanted to get some jerseys...but once i saw my idols i was simply too shellshocked to ask anythin from them......wasted sia

the best thing has yet to come........i saw FANDI AHMAD and the national coach RADOJKO AVRAMOVIC.....that was the best man.......meetin fandi......that is damn cool............and i guess i didnt even miss anyone of the provisional 30-man squad for the tiger cup........i mean didnt even miss seein them close up.........rocks my world man

i even met the home united coach steve darby......even shake hand with him and talked with him man........this is really a day that i would remember man.........27 november 2004......the day i became a ball boy...it was really a hell of an experience...